I find myself writing again...

Today was a total headache for me in the office. The great and powerful wizard I fondly call "Silent Bob" was out sick so I found myself without a mentor. The worst part was that both the servers of our company started acting up. The server "stingray" was the worst of all because it just decided to die out on that particular day. I guess I'm thankful for everyone who went out of their way to try and help me out of that jam.
Worse yet, Silent Bob had mustered whatever strength he had to come to work and make one server, the aging "stingray", come back to functionality. Unfortunately, even his skills weren't enough to coax it back to life. As for the other server, it is also starting to show signs of instability. However, I have been able to make it recover. At least for the time-being.
My frustrations stem from losing. I hate losing. I fail to understand the concept of some things being impossible for me. I have always gone the way of getting the job done. I don't like leaving things unfinished.
The experience today was a very big eye-opener. It told me that my department is ill-prepared for a contingency that would lose time and effort. As I have stated when I started working, I came on board that company because they help people out. If it weren't for that, I would have taken that other job where there's this big elevator that is big enough to carry a small mobile suit.
I don't want to be caught unaware again. I want to start having contingency measures. I want to be ready for whatever comes my way. Despite having a backup, it occurred to me that we don't have any other machine that will handle things if the worst happens. This was basically my frustration today.
I wish I was looking for a girl. I think this is God's way of telling me that I am not prepared for that which I want to come. In other words, he really is planning on me to find her someday or she'll just come to me. I'll have to be ready for her. In other words, there is life after my duties to my family. I simply have to be ready for it when it comes.