Life speaks to us and all we need do is listen...

I have two servers that went down last Wednesday. I replayed the situation over and over in my head and thought about how to deal with the situation better next time. While we had a contingency plan for the situation, I thought of how to do things better. Needless to say that the contingency plan worked well. We did great and, considering that it was a total server crash, we were fully operational by Friday. The entire system went down Wednesday and we were partially operational by Thursday afternoon. Not bad considering that all systems were down and we had to operate using back-ups . However, that was not the story that ran in my head in a cold Friday morning.
I do not have a girlfriend. There is this one girl who looks very much like Vanessa Anne Hudgens that I have this really huge crush on but I don't think she feels the same. I have often asked myself why God might find me unfitting for any woman whom I fall for. I think I found my answer during the entire server incident last Wednesday.
Despite all of my strengths, despite all of the abilities that I possess, I am not ready for her. The girl whose soft smile I see in my mind when I close my eyes is a great girl. She is a wonderful girl. She is able to move mountains and part seas with her grace. The stars bow to her in adoration. The funny thing is I see her all the time in my dreams but I can't remember her when I wake up.
The server incident of Wednesday showed me that I have skills but I have to hone them. There is still much I have to learn and I have to face facts that many will impress themselves upon me. It falls upon me to move into my future with a mind that is steeled and ready rather than with eyes that have a blank stare. I must always strive to look beyond the blankness of my eyes to see the world and the future that it promises me. It falls upon me to fulfill that promise. It is with these two hands that I shall mold my life and it is with this sharp mind that I shall make the world see what I have become. The struggles I shall face with my head held high and a great grin on my face for therein lies the spice of life for the world is my teacher and the Lord my companion and we shall travel with eyes wide open to see what lies beyond that which all have said is the highest peak I can climb.