'S Funny, 'S All...

I checked out this message from my elder brother the other day. It was both funny and full of comfort at the same time. You see, I sent him an e-mail a few days before that because he is expecting a son soon and I was suggesting some names. Well, he still hasn't settled on a name. I can't blame him. First sons are always the pride and joy of fathers. Myself, I wonder if I would ever be as lucky as he is. I mean, he has a wonderful wife who loves him and keep him centered and he has a loving family who is behind him all the way. In my world, he has it all. He now has a place to rest all his hopes, all his dreams, and all his ambitions. I, on the other hand, still live like a mercenary.
I still live my existence based on the needs that are required of it. I don't really know how it is to live in a life that has me smiling and not bound by the constraints of duties not set by myself. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. It's simply thinking to myself how all of the current duties that I have are not the ones that I chose for myself. My current duties have been dictated by circumstance and, one day, I fear that they will once more dictate where I will serve once more. It is true that, throughout all this time, God and the Fates have proven themselves to be on my side. It is unfortunate, however, that too many people have done otherwise. Many have, though. For them, I am particularly thankful.
It occurs to me that the higher powers of God and the Fates have given me their blessing and have trusted that I will make the right choices and decisions in my short trek in life. I know this because they have deemed it allowable that I don't fight in any wars this time around. I think they want me to start finding out what it means to be a person and how it is to live life for real. I think they want me to go the full ten yards and take the entire experience in.
This leads me to the humor and irony of it all. My best friend and my elder brother are both involved romantically with someone right now. I find it funny that, whenever I tell them about the girlfriend thing, they both say the same thing. They both say "It just comes to you". It's funny that it is this piece of advice that comes from two people who are both very much in-love with their significant others to a person like me and I am supposed to believe that this will come without effort. Ah, well. I think it is in this regard that I leave it to more divine forces. If I find her, then I do. When I do, I wil fight for her with all my might just because I know that she will do the same for me. I will fight for her with all my might because I want to hold onto her and never lose her again. It is quite ironic that I may never find her. If I don't, well, life has to go on. There is still a lot of work to be done here and I know that if I were with her, she would want me to go and keep on trying to make things better. The only difference is that there would be a second person who will be trying right beside me and I will have someone I am certain that I will stand beside.

Clothes...

Today, I wore some clothes I haven't donned for a while. I wore a long-sleeved shirt, slacks, and leather shoes. An ensemble I haven't donned since my days working in Safeway which was two years ago. I had an ulterior motive to wearing this garb. Actually, I had two.
The first one was because my jeans that have served me well for more than four years have finally given up the ghost. My jeans have gotten torn. I will probably spend tomorrow stitching them up so that I still have rugged pants to use. The second was I wanted to mix things up a bit at work. Too many people have gotten too complacent and have gotten too comfortable with the workplace. I thought I would stir things up a bit by showing them a different side of me.
Two theories came about from my actions. One I found curious, the other was common. The first was hot date. Actually, there were some who were saying it looked nice. Was it far from the truth. Yes. I did not have a date that evening nor did I plan on picking anyone up to go out with. I was more of a just leave me alone kind of guy.
The second theory to my ensemble was job interview. It was something I didn't pay too much attention to. I was staying up late the night before reading which was the reason why I came in to work late. I just let them guess. I gave them one reason for my apparel. I ran out of clothes to wear. It is the lamest, most unbelievable excuse ever. My reason for using the most unbelievable excuse is that it keeps them guessing.
Life relies on three things. It relies on the mind, the body, and the soul. In this case, we shall refer to an element of the soul: the heart or emotion. Now, all three of these are in constant motion. The mind learns, the body grows, and the soul feels. If one of these comes at a stand still, it throws off the dynamic factor of the other two. All three are in motion that is interdependent and interrelated. The growth of one supplements the other. In the case of the mind, once it stops learning, the body tends to lose its strength and emotions start to become neagative. In the case of the body, once it stops growing, the mind starts to become complacent and emotions become negative. Now, emotions are totally different.
The emotional growth of a being supplants the desire to learn, hence, to improve. In this improvement, the body follows in development and discipline. Emotion has to be dynamic. One cannot stay in one state of emotion for too long for it hinders creative thought. It robs a mind of inspiration in its state of stasis.
Inspiration is important for it makes us all progress. It makes us go beyond our limits. It creates goals and aspirations and not just blind ambition. It gives us purpose and makes us struggle for a brighter tomorrow.
So, I learned a lot today. A change of clothes and I was a different person and I probably put a few smiles on the faces of my co-workers. Who knows. Maybe I will don a similar ensemble once again.